What was your reason why?
I got a cold. Missed a date with someone because of it. Was feeling bored, lonely and frustrated and did the math of when I would next see them and figured it wouldn’t hurt to slip one session in. Felt pretty shit after. Then a couple hours later, what the hell. Another session. Felt even worse. I’m starting to fuckin hate porn so that’s probably a good sign for my recovery
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The reason was I wanted to see if I can get rock hard. I haven’t woken up with morning wood in months. Really it wasn’t because I had a desire to watch porn, it was mostly to see if I can physically get an erection and not have a physical problem.
I’d suggest mindful/intentional masturbation for a while. Do some research.
First, the constant “checking” is reinforcing the anxiety loop. Every time you monitor hardness, you train your brain to treat sex and arousal like a test.
Second, using porn as a tedt doesn’t prove you’re fine, it just proves porn is a very strong stimulus. The actual skill you want to rebuild is being able to get and stay aroused without that external super-stimulus, using internal cues instead, fantasy, sensation, breath, connection.
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I simply had an opportunity. It’s part of my boredom response for sure.
I had been unable to for a while and was finally away from my partner. I was craving the specific kinks that I can’t live out with my partner and knew I would have time to do so
A stressful day at work and needing to feel an escape.
For the sake of sensory variety
things didn’t workout how i wanted
Stressful day and time leading to wanting to just do something to relieve myself
Boredom, added variety to masturbation
I feel like it shuts down so much of the rest of my brain, I enter a kind of flow state,
And then I can fall asleep during or after.
Also, the imagined intimacy feels enriching to more than just my sexual systems, I think.
I had to do something I didn’t want to do, and it was going to take most of the day and I needed a distraction from the feeling of potential boredom all day.
I’ve used porn for 5/6 years or so every time Ivr masterbated. St first I thought using porn to masterbate was the only way to do it, I thought it was a symbiotic relationship watch porn masterbate. But now it’s becuase an addiction, half the time I don’t even want to masterbate I just force myself to do it. It’s mainly when I’m bored or have nothing to do, kill time even. That’s the mainly reason as to why I use porn
I like what i watch
I had time before I needed to get in the shower before going out with my friends, automatically without thinking I went into my bedroom and started watching.
It was late, i was tired, and i had finished work. the elephant took over to feel pleasure after a stressful 8 hours
Watching and masterbating to porn feels comfortable and routine, usually the elephant feels in charge. Rider is heavily in control every day during work so sometimes feels good to let the elephant loose.
I recently watched porn because I was alone and I couldn’t sleep, and often a main motivator is to prove I can still get an erection. I often won’t ejaculate when watching porn because my “rider” system tells me to save it for my partner. Often I only last an hour or two before coming back to ejaculate. In this example, initially my rider and elephant systems were working together, but then my elephant system won out.