With the new information so far, what’s your take on why that happened?
I have usually relapsed within a fortnight. I feel immense shame and so avoid “burdening” my partner with my sex drive as I don’t know how to initiate sex normally with her anymore. So eventually my needs boil over and I go back.
When I go “cold turkey” off of porn, every day feels like a second that I’m underwater…1…2…3… I feel like eventually I’m going to gasp for air and watch again.
I stopped trying to quit years ago. I eventually learned that it never addressed the shame. Now the issue is just not being secretive about it.
I will quit for a while and be ‘good’ especially if I am busy or physically with my partner for a period of time. Then when I am alone the urges come back and I always eventually relapse, often worse than before and then feel really guilty.
I got C-PTSD after divorce 20
Year whith my wife who is
Narcissit.after divorce i dress like a woman and have sex with men.I took amfetamin to make my pain go away and all i could think of sex whith men.its 4 years divorce and now i got a womans butt and breast train like a woman reales the pain.This is the only way to feel better dont know why.dont amfetamin now but when i did i had sex whith men.i am traumatisis and go to psykolog