I have struggled with getting hard and staying hard for years. I always thought this was porn induced ED. But it has been 1 year since I watched porn and jerked off simultaneously and I am still struggling to achieve and maintain an erection.
I am so annoyed because I can do this when I am alone. No problems. But when I am with my wife of 6 years I feel nothing. I feel the sadness and disgust of letting her down again. I feel the disappointment of not being good enough, of all the times she had to express herself being sad and annoyed at me.
Most of all I just feel anger that I feel less than. Like less than a human, incapable of expressing a core part of being human.