I’ll start by saying it’s been a while since I’ve had an incident. I’ve been with my fiance for almost two years now. We plan to elope later this month. I haven’t had performance anxiety for months now. But the closer we get to the wedding, the more it’s been cropping up.
Today, for the first time in a long time, I lost my erection. We had had sex earlier in the day and it was great. We started going at it later and after a bit, my erection went down. I got all in my head about “maybe she’s not enjoying this”. I later learned that she came while we were going at it, but regardless I started beating myself up hard. We tried again and it happened again.
I just feel like a dud. Like a worthless waste of time with a good for nothing dick. Who could ever love me.