I am a sex trafficking survivor so I check out mentally when having sex even if it’s consensual
I am a survivor so I tend to check out mentally when having sex even if it’s consensual
For me its always been a lack of knowledge/experience and way too self conscious/embarrassed to talk about it as it was taboo growing up, not shameful just private & never discussed. Add in my 1st time was being rapes and resulted in pregnancy at 14. Stretchmarks, gossip, and freshman year in a new city only compounded my insecurities.
Yes the suggestion that worrying about how I look and also preforming are known and common issues
I have a hard time shutting off my brain and just focusing on what my body is feeling. I try and tell myself to focus but that just gets my mind going even more because I’m yelling at myself in my head.
My self confidence.
i overthink im taking too long and that he’s getting tired.
i dont even know what i enjoy myself
It’s either one or all of the following for me, can’t shut my brain off, feeling self conscious about my body, or worried about him
I feel like my ADHD is playing a part in this
I have experienced orgasm with a partner during intercourse and it is the most amazing experience ever but I can’t consistently achieve that
None surprised me - I know I perform when I’m having sex even with my partner of 4.5 years bc god forbid I don’t look sexy. He also says I’m sexy and doesn’t last long so it always feels like a rush and almost transactional to ‘get each other off’ and then it’s done.. if I wanted to orgasm without toys it would take too long so I just fake it and I don’t know how to stop doing that or bring it up and fix it because I don’t know how to get there
yes!!! it feels like i cannot be 100% present but i want to be so bad